Indecision

The Holy Spirit guides. The Holy Spirit directs. The Holy Spirit prompts. Are we paying attention? Once again, it seemed I didn’t want to. What was stopping me? Was it me, or was it the enemy stopping me? Was it an out-of-my-comfort-zone situation? It would have been much easier to say no than to say yes to the wedding reception I had been invited to. It was located in a part of a city that I wouldn’t go to at night by myself, so I wondered if I should even go there during the daylight hours? Was I being disobedient by not attending? Would I even be missed? I couldn’t say for sure. But I kept the day clear, just in case I really needed to go. I asked my husband if he would go with me, if I decided to go. Such indecision! Crazy! When the day came, we went. But, why did I find myself in this battle of wills once again? For me, I believe the Lord is fine tuning His children. God wants those who call themselves Christians to heed His Word and His Voice as the time draws near for Jesus’ return. I heard that as the world is falling apart, prophecy is coming together. That’s happening all around us! When Jesus calls, “Get into the Ark,” we need to be found on board! I believe our hearts are being prepared for hard obedience as this world attempts to pull us far away from God. The enemy was pulling hard on me to go his way, and God was calling me hard the other way. What voice would I listen to?

In this situation, when Jim and I did show up, we knew we were right where we should have been because of comments made by the bride. I truly don’t think being there was so much out of my comfort zone, as it was spiritual warfare. The enemy, Satan, didn’t want me to be there—for my sake, and for the bride’s. Satan was tossing me like a wave of the sea, going back and forth between his will and God’s. I have to say, when I woke up the morning after the event, I was so thankful to have gone. I was so thankful that God left all the doors open for me to say yes.

Would it have been the end of the world if we had refused God’s request? No. Would it have hurt anyone? I don’t know. But I do know that lives were blessed, including ours, by doing what God wanted. I played a more important role in this bride’s life, spiritually, than I had ever realized. Even though we don’t know each other all that well, having only worked together for a period of time, I needed to be there because this bride was marrying to honor God. And when she introduced me to her mother, she told her mom that I was the one who led her to God. Oh my, how the enemy wanted me to miss that moment! Our time spent together, talking about the things of God at work, had impacted her walk with Him. It was very important that I support her in her decision to marry.

Searching And Noticing the Divine can take us to places we wouldn’t normally go, physically and spiritually. Jesus went wherever He was called. He did whatever His Father asked Him to do. The least we can do is walk this life out following in Jesus’ footsteps, trusting that where the Holy Spirit leads is where we are meant to be!

But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind.
James 1:6 (NLT)